#2 On finding solitude
alt: on college days, bus rides, music & fall season 🍊
Hi, so good to see you again! :)
Story time:
As fall starts rolling in, I can't help but think about how much I love this season. It brings out all these nostalgic vibes in me. It's like a blast from the past, this pre fall/fall time reminds me of my limited college life, a time I hold dear.
I used to travel back from college to home in bus and enjoy the fast death taking - mini heart attack ride back to home. I would plug in my earphones, cranking up the music to drown out the chaos of the outside world and the constant chatter in my mind.
One particular memory stands out vividly: during the end sem exams of my first semester, I found myself assigned a window seat. The exam questions seemed somewhat different from what I had prepared for, and the icy cold air made my hands tremble. All I could think about was returning home and having a hot cup of tea. ☕🧦
Then, in what felt like a stroke of magic, I suddenly grasped the answers to all the questions, and mind you it was the last hour of the paper! It was an adrenaline rush like no other.
Anyhoo, after the adrenaline rush of knowing nothing to answering all the questions in last 60 minutes, it got pretty late coming back home (read: around 8 pm) it was really dark outside and very few people around, I was walking my way back to home from the station and I experienced an unexpected sense of peace, the empty unfamiliar road somehow became my friend.
I strongly believe that anything you consume, adds a lot of character to you, I played songs in my ear and I was in the different zone altogether; those melodies became a part of my character development. Till date, my dopamine levels go all silly after listening to those songs. They bridged the gap between the college version of myself and the person I was at home. These moments of solitude and self-discovery during the fall season have left a lasting memory in my heart.
P.S: Writing this down totally brought a flood of memories rushing back, and it feels pretty darn good to realize I'm not emotionally constipated.
Gallery crumbs:
I've got some eye-pleasing pics in my gallery from our college trip to Dilli Haat! 📸
Recommendation for this week:
Since we're talking all things fall, I would recommend anime and songs that feel like a warm, snug blanket on a chilly winter day. ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ
Anime: Haikyuu
The characters, the plot, the development, the story, MWAH chef kiss! (๑ˇεˇ๑) The story is about high school students maturing and finding themselves through the medium of volleyball.
Songs:
Some fall notebook ideas:
your greatest comforts;
songs that remind you of fall;
words that warm your spirit;
things you want to be known for;
your favorite things about fall.
That’s all for this week, see you soon! 👋